New Thoughts (4/25/01)
It's interesting to note, in looking back through this section, that almost a year ago, I was looking to where all this was heading, recognizing the warning held in these verses for the one who would teach. Now, I find I have begun to take up that role, and how much more the warnings resound! Israel indeed stands as an example for we who have come after them. We are reminded that God did not leave them guessing about His ways, but blessed them with 'definite and precise information from heaven.' And this was the old covenant. That information has only become more full, definite, and precise for us, in that we have the more complete revelation of the new covenant. We are equally prone to trusting in the knowledge, to trusting in the privilege, and yet failing in the commitment. As Mr. Henry reminds us, "External privileges, if they do not do us good, do us hurt." All the benefits of a Christian family, a solid church, an available and well-worn Bible; all the study tools available to us in this age of information; all the teaching tapes, and all the books, and all the Christian schools, will be worse than nothing to us, if they don't lead us into change.
The warning given here to the teachers of Israel is resounding all the louder in my ears for my having begun teaching. Whether the questions Paul raises are meant to reflect the mundane acts of those he writes to, or whether there is a greater spiritual implication begins to loose its importance to me. Either way, I see all too much of myself here. I can deny the specific charges, perhaps, but not the implications. Indeed, even the charges must hold, if I am to judge by the standards of the Judge, else I am indeed no different than they. I asked before, and I ask again, how many times just yesterday have my actions proclaimed a different Gospel than I claim to serve? How many of my words this week have given cause to those who don't know my Christ to consider Him of no worth? In Calvin, we are reminded that we are no different today, who claim the Gospel as the revealed rule of Christ, and yet 'tread it under foot by [our] unbridled and licentious mode of living.' And Barnes reminds us that "It is the life and conduct, and not merely the profession of the lips, that does real honor to the true religion." In this, both do no more than to remind us of what God has already declared to us in 'definite and precise information from heaven:' (1Ti 6:1 - Let all who serve with the Lord God as master show Him to be most honored by their actions, that none may speak against true doctrine.) When will I ever learn? When, oh Lord, will my actions come to reflect my belief? When will the love I know from You be the love that others know from me? When will I be able to practice what I teach? Oh, God! How can I dare to attempt to pass judgment on those who walk with me? By what right do I allow my anger to rise up? Jesus, I know my love for You is true, and yet I know my actions bring hurt to Your Holy name. I cannot tolerate this, yet how shall I change? Only by Your power, only by Your willing and working within me can I hope to come to the place we both long for me to reach. Indeed, I see Calvin is quite correct in saying that "no one who is seriously touched and moved by the fear of God, will ever dare to raise his eyes to heaven, since the more he strives after true righteousness, the clearer he sees how far he is from it." Oh, how far I am, my God, from the righteous place. Oh, how much pride still remains to be burned away. How much of my work, dear Lord, is unacceptable to You, because of that pride? Whose best am I trying to offer You? Lord, I know my pride is great, and I know it is unacceptable. Teach me, oh Lord, how to walk humbly before You. Whisper, nay shout, warnings in my ear when I am walking into the place of that "Spiritual pride [which] is of all kinds of pride the most dangerous." If there be any piety in me, dear Father, I will indeed thank You for it, for it is ever clearer that it is none of my own doing. Help me, oh my Lord, if I fall to boasting of my knowledge of You, to remember that it is only by Your own revelation that I understand anything. Make of me a willing servant, dear God, ready and able to share what You have revealed. Create in me a pure heart, for, as Barnes noted, "There is
nothing reckoned different from what it is. God judges things as they are." Indeed, You judge truly, and in all righteousness are Your judgments made. With all this hard reminder before my eyes, I thank You most deeply that You have provided the means by which You, in Your righteous judgment, can declare such as myself free of guilt before You. Thank You, Jesus! Thank You, Lord, for becoming my Salvation! Thank You, Lord, for opening my eyes to see, and my ears to hear! Thank You, Holy Spirit, for working to soften this heart of mine, enabling me to turn and be healed of the lethal disease of sin! Thank You, Father, for providing the way for me to enter in to Your courts boldly, with all reverence, but without fear.